Hi Rog Every day is hard without you but not having you here with me at xmas was unbearable, you would have been exited about getting your pension but never mind. I miss you so much Roger but strange things have happened in the house so i know you are here, I feel you lying next to me and can hear you breathing, Keith feels you round him with the cat telling him off like you used to, sometimes I feel you in the kitchen having a fag when there's an advert on, I found a Pandora charm on the bedroom floor that you bought me and i had lost about 6 months ago. It is comforting to feel you around me, but i really want you here with me in life not spirit, my heart aches for you and my body just wants to hold you close. I love and miss you so so much till we meet again my love, my life, my everything, my endless love xxxxxxx